Need to deal with this violent threat, an idea that what this disaster is causing me will destroy my life as a whole, i cant keep living this way, my soul will eat me alive. If you cant give me what i want why dont you exist when i need you to. i gave to much, i always do, like i feel that you want to know what you want to know about me. when will i realise that what im feeling is not what i desire but what i want from this world to captivate and restructure this world as a whole, just save my fucking soul and take me away from this delusional paranoia you give me,