I wait for you.

This heart I hold will bring me closer to you,

Nothing could keep me from loving you.

I give everything I can to give you what you need,

I'll always try to be the one you love,

I won't leave you, always waiting for you.

Beyond doubt I call for your desire

I hope that you could become the one I spend eternity

Everything between us, everything that is us

I just want to be yours

Forever yours.

Devour Me Whole.

She'll eat you alive

This world

will not save you

A life alone

Hope for misery

Despair, satisfied

I'm alone in this world of tears

Covered in lies

I look to the skies

She'll keep you warm at night

I need to run away

Just please stay away.

Leave this world and don't look back.

I didn't mean this

You mean too much

Do not tire

I cannot withdraw

Nothing more to be said.

Just hope it ends alright

Hope she brings you love

Hope she ends this world of tears

And brings you to your knees.

Exit, front stage.

Eat Me, Alive.

Blood

There's xxx on your chest. She's back isn't she?

It Should Have Been Predicted

Well I should have seen this coming.

This is the life that we were expecting.

Nothing should be so easy.

Can't imagine that this life will change.

But this is it.

Only will it decide,

Once love is dead and gone.

Coming Closer, Make Us Warmer

She brings you this fire,

Kills life inside the desire

She fights for you

And gives you this to die

Come on baby let it die

Let this heart roll-over and die

Fuck this world

Fuck this life

All you want to bring this alive

Is sitting alone under a loving lie.

Our Times That You Would Rather Give Up

Away

She'll take you far, far away.

Beyond the stars,

Beyond the lights,

Beyond the love.

I take you away with me,

I'll make you mine.

You'll drink my blood

And we'll laugh in slaughter

The blood of our enemies

Brings us together once more

You dig this desire

And I'll burn you with fire

We do not dare to contemplate the meaning behind our existence

We merely ask that you don't give up on us.

We Always End In Tears, Because This Life Isn't Meant To Be Feared

This life

A shadow in the blue

With love tied into the framework of her body

You whisper

'I Love You,'

She never hears you...

This is how it's meant to be

This is how life makes you

Nobody looking out for you

No wonder love breaks you.

Will you fulfill your rock-star dream?

Will you live past Twenty-one?

Will you crawl of of the shadow of your life,

And at least give me a hug, before I die?

Blatant respondents calling false accordance

Too late too far

Please forgive me

Don't turn back

This life I left behind

Shattered my hatred and my fear

With this short collapse

The arm dropped

The spindle scratch the record playing goodbye sweet night

Hold me close

Feel me now

All I want is you in my mouth

I gave you dreams

I gave you hearts

But this life you left me

Is nothing but darts.

Apathetic Androgyny

Her body,

Lovely and perfect

Lying below me

Eyes looking into mine

A time ago

This was what love was

Now

It's just memories

Our desire

Locks in each other eyes

Feels like satin

...on satin

Love composed within the satin sheets

Under a blanket of moonlight

Nights love goes on forever.

Passion and fire

The same old metaphor

Heavy breaths just make it so

Complete comfort

Extreme vulnerability

Everything combined

To take our love

Apathy destroyed

Just the complete desire to send her body out of control and make her shake in your arms

Aspiration Endured Pleasurably.

With what comes to the fold when the desire begins to bare. Lose all sense of self control as the products start to tear, this corruption unfolded by longing for destruction. Who can sense, dispense, administer without the lies.

Deception, she looks to the sky. A sweet respite that makes Victoria wish she were somewhere else. Why does she sit in the same spot everyday hoping that something will change. The only effect seems to be the dead grass that disappears everyday. Some day she hopes that she will see him. The one person that will change her life. Re-adapt, Repeat.

An art-form that makes us change with every coming day, Never do the words begin to fragment, compared to the thoughts and hearts of those combined. Victoria just sits alone, wasting her days by looking for her life companion that just continually destroys her heart.

Introspective

What is it inside of me that possesses this de-motivation the moment I enter solitude. Can it be attributed to the contact and appreciation of other human beings, and even admiration, that elevates my mood to a point where the disconnection of the cause of happiness can have a negative mood swing similar to the effects a drug user of speed might experience?
Do I feel so uncomfortable and so self-hating that I have to use the happiness of others to make my life worth living?
Today shall be my attempt at near-complete disconnection to society, near-complete in the sense that I wont be searching for human interaction, but if someone wishes to contact me then they have the ability to do so.
I think over the past year especially I suppose this has always happened, though I cannot say for sure which if either of the explanations it could be.
Now humans by nature are social beings, but why do I find it so hard to be in a social setting yet feel so depressed to leave a social setting, there definitely comes a point where I inevitably get fed up in a sense of the people around me and I just have to exit that scenario, but when I don't feel the need to exit such a situation, and I witness either the 'enjoyable' people around me leaving, or my own self leaving against my inner volition why do I experience what can only be described as anxiety.

:Introspection End:

What Began And What Ended.

What holds in us our need, our desire, our passion for living. Will she or won't she, sometimes I just sit and wonder about what could have been, with all these people I've never dared to meet, all of those pretty things I never dared explore. What brings in us this desire for acceptance; is our desire to live stronger than our passion to explore? No one can ever determine the true purpose to discovering an ancient lie, a hidden truth clouded in mystery, and I do caress the notion of loving a fellow lover, the occasional skip of the heart beat, the romantic gestures, the time old phrases and canon performances. Our life as we know it is merely a simple beat in the song and dance that entwines our lovely minds together. You always keep certain memories of your past, some of them will remain seemingly clear as day, others you'll remember fragments of speech, colours or smells, and the very special few will fade in time to leave a lasting impression of an extraordinary emotion that will be shared amongst yourself until the day you die. There is nothing that will make you forget how that moment felt, and everything that reminds you of that moment will trigger inside of you that moment that sits so deep in your heart.

The only light being the cool glow from the moon; nervous anticipation, satin and lace. Nervous excitement. A true connection, a timeless bond, a moment that will change your life forever. Twenty minutes of your life that you will never forget.

And now all that your left to hold onto is the kiss goodbye and some tacky polaroids... If they were only real polaroids they wouldn't be so shameful.

Willfully Abandoned

She makes me wonder
How could you turn my heart asunder
You make me try
To bring us back to life
Don't forgive this
Don't bereave for me
I will endure
For this desire you give me
!Gives me desire to kill you

Where Do You Hide Victoria

Lovely listen heartbeats sink
This is our home we'll build it together
Fight for our love
Ill stand here forever

Sink into the sand
Watch the waves wash over me
I look out to the see
When will you come home to me
Victoria

Some day youll be lost
And 'til then we'll lust
But forever ill try
To Find you again
Victoria

Take me away
Take me away from here
Take me away
Take me away from this
Victoria.

Pillowtalk

Because thats just what it is...


But sometimes, just sometimes, you want to come back to the pillow.

A Promise To Compromise

Dont you know how I feel when I feel,
You should feel proud, youre not dismembered.

Because we laugh in the rain,
While I curse your name
I wish you were dead
At least dead to me.

You hope for stars and when I care too much,
You just run away
Because I gave my heart to you but you didnt like it,
And threw it away.

Never give it up,
As long as I breathe it,
Youll push me away,
But ill come back again,
and forever again

Im Taking Pansexuality Back!

What will this love amount to
Who will stay until the end
Love knows no bounds say they
But they say they'venot loved
It's al hopes and dreams
Until my honey wakes up dead
But before you knew
We'd wish for a life of regrets
Before ever meeting you

Somedays are easier than others
When all we wish for is an illusion
But between you and me
Nothing lasts better
Than a night under the stars
And a night in each others arms

Watching the time pass by
Expressing our lust
Through emotionless actions
Hours by and we'd not know our name
You'll be removed
And I'll keep on living
This night will mark time
I'll forget my desires
That I've longed forever
Born anew
Into my new life
...Fuck I Love Me...

Save The Thoughts For Paper

How do I place the words properly to express how I feel without forsaking our friendship.
For what reason would someone drunkenly admit your deepest dreams
Only to shamelessly avoid it later.
And when you react badly and self-destructive, the simple sign that they care
Is enough to turn your whole heart around.
[See the mirror in your eyes,
See the truth behind your lies...]
It's a simple solution, to forsake a friendship
I've given all I've got
I've nothing more to lose.
Who can, who will forgive me now,
When  all that I do
Is lost in misery.
[...Your eyes are haunting me,
See the reason in your eyes.
Giving answer to the why,
Your eyes are haunting me...]
If I could only see you one more time,
Everything would be alright,
One more time, one more night.
Everything would be just fine....


Why can't you feel it?
Why can't you see it?
In and out of love.... each time...




**certain lines from "In And Out Of Love" by Armin Van Buuren**

Hedon's Do It Better

On a path of self-destruction due to ones own self-loathing
No more will these days outnumber the lives of our forerunners
Days pass on, and I'll learn to cope
Someday you and I will spend together forever

Never will I let this heart die
My exterior will shine brighter than the sun.

Many years ago...

Deciding to start putting up song demo's and other music works ive come up with myself and this is a test on embedding music files.



Thats my Year 12 Music 1 HSC composition peice, figure here was a good enough place to post it. Enjoy,.